It's been about 2 years since I got serious with dA and just looking back it makes me happy yet sad.
I remember my first RP group! I was absolutely brilliant and so were the people I talked to. It really helped me improve and opened me up to so much! But the people I talked to are the people I wish I stayed close with V n V; They were truly great friends, and lately, I think back on those times and miss them so much. I still watch them grow from the shadows C: I'm so happy to see how far they have gone.
And since then, I've meet so many other amazing people and discovered so many things about myself, like what I like, what I don't like, different points of view, different people, different WORLDS 8D And I'm so glad I got to experience this all!
But I've also discovered how much I hate my personality and myself in general. Over the years, I've been told that I'm rude, selfish, whinny, a bitch, a horrible person, a horrible friend and many other things. I don't disagree with a single one of those things. But they really have helped. Sure, they hurt. They hurt A LOT, but those words make me think about my actions and how stupid they were and how I've changed since them C: I ended last year in a way I wish I never did, and I want nothing more than to go back and change the stupid thing I did. But I can't change the past, so I'm going to move on and try my hardest to become a better person.
Over the past two years; I've made friends, I've lost friends, I've gained lovers and made enemies, I've made amazing decisions, and made horrible mistakes, I've left good memories, and horrible impressions.
And I wouldn't change them for the world C:
Let's look forward to many other years to come as I grow up and learn!
Also sorry for being dead
